Per Aspera Ad Astra.

Wed, 17 Dec 2003 07:26:36 GMT

Okay if you wanted to be added, add www.livejournal.com/users/eat_brains

I probably should have put that in the first post.

Meh.

Okay bye for real this time.

Smile fuckers

Mon, 15 Dec 2003 05:06:41 GMT

I have a new livejournal.

Comment if you would like to be added.

If not, fare thee well.

Oooh la la la la la la

Sat, 13 Dec 2003 01:07:17 GMT

Work was slow today, they totally didn't even need me there.

Oh well. At least my headache is gone.

I got paid today though, and it was a pretty nice sized pay. And consequently I spent about a third of it already, on Christmas gifts for Nikki, Caitlin and my dad. But at least that is taken care of now. I guess I'll finish the rest on Sunday.

BLAH I AM SO BORED. FUCK.

FUCK THIS

Fri, 12 Dec 2003 17:29:33 GMT

I woke up at 6am with the worst headache EVER, the kind that makes you feel like you're gonna throw up and your head is in a fucking vice. Couldn't get back to sleep. At 7am I took some T3s and those make me so tired, I fell right back asleep. Woke up again a little while ago, still have the headache! Yay! So I called work.

Mere: "Hello?"
Me: "Mere? It's Tanya."
Mere: "Oh hey, what's up."
Me: "Nothing. Umm I hate to do this to you but-"
Mere: "You are not calling in sick, I have everyone working today, you have to come in."

Um. She told me last night that not everyone was working tonight. And even if tey were, she couldn't have called anyone in two hours early? I mean, she had no problem calling me in two hours early, two days in a row last week. And yeah, it is moonlight madness or whatever, but I'm working 2:30-5:30 and it is NOT THAT BUSY during those hours. I've never ever ever called in sick or missed a shift, I've TAKEN ON shifts every single fucking time they've asked me to, even if it means that I work six days a week.

I HATE THIS JOB. FUCK FUCK FUCK.

As soon as I get another one, I'm quitting. Fuck this. I'm so mad I could cry. But that would prolly make me throw up. Dammit.

Hungry Hungry Hippos

Thu, 11 Dec 2003 20:02:21 GMT

One of my teachers is a sugar coated bitch who thinks I'm "very bright" but that I need to "work on my organization skills." (How observant!)

Another is a moron.

The third is probably one of the best men to ever walk this earth, and I admire him very much.

I am not going to be sad to see this semester go.

However, I do kick ass at 3am when I have five things due the next morning.

Greapefruit is awesome.

I am not so overloaded now. I have no homework tonight, and I don't think I am going to school tomorrow because I have a doctor's appointment at 11am, so I would only be able to go to like one class in the morning, and wouldn't be back in time for English. So why bother.

I am only working three hours tomorrow, in the afternoon. Three hour shifts are bullshit, but the less time I spend there, the better.

I think this is all I have to report on today.

Aww.

Thu, 11 Dec 2003 03:40:44 GMT

Tristan owns.

T<3T
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In Diana Jones and the Temple of Poon

Thu, 11 Dec 2003 00:07:19 GMT

Reminds you of an ex: Converge
Reminds you of an ex friend: Bob Marley
Makes you cry: Hot Water Music- Bleeder
Makes you laugh: It's peanut buttah jelly time!
Makes you smile: The Postal Service
never want to hear it again: That goddamn Story Of The Year song.
sums up your teenage years: I'll let you know when I'm done them
You want to get married to: Hahaha.
You like to wake up to: Weezer, K-OS
You like out of your parents record collection: Black Sabbath, Iron Maiden
You love that you wouldn't know about if it wasn't for a friend: Every Time I Die
You love the video more than the tune: Blink182- Feelin' This
Reminds you of your first crush: Nirvana, Green Day
Remind you of your new crush: I don't have a new crush
Makes you think of sex: Deftones, Tool
Makes you think of being alone: Gary Jules- Mad World
Has only been released recently but you already love: New Blink 182, new Outkast
Are embarressed to admit you like: Nothing, why should I be embarrased to like something?
Perks you up: Reggie and the Full Effect- Love
You love to sing: Poison- Every Rose Has Its Thorn

Only In Dreams...

Wed, 10 Dec 2003 06:00:20 GMT

I bought two new hoodies today.

It's a Weezer day today.

*Personal Reminder*
Due tomorrow: Hamlet soliloquie, introduction to English ISU and sketch of the rest of it.
Due Thursday: leaving home survey, teen pregnancy survey, questions for professional, questions for layperson/article/case study.

Work:
Thursday-> 6:00-10:00
Friday-> 2:30-5:30
Sunday-> I forget.

That's it. That is all I am working this week. No extra shifts, no comming in early, no staying late. I will refuse them! I need a life outside of Claire's! VIVA LA RESISTANCE!!!

Today I watched The Zombie Kitten and Miss Fish actually touch noses! Without hissing! I think they will love each other eventually.

Sarah and I decided that our teachers are going to hell for their powertripping homework assignments. And from heaven we shall send then three HUNDRED ISUs to do!! About ice cream and tea, the cinematic brilliance of The Evil Dead trilogy, summaries and explanations of each new Gilmore Girls episode. Opinion pieces on Disney movies. Comparison essays on: vampires vs. zombies, puppies vs. kittens, including case studies and pointless title pages. Etc etc etc. Also, they will be forced to listen to Jessica Simpson, The Moffats and 98degrees on repeat. FOREVER.

BRILLIANT

Eeep

Tue, 09 Dec 2003 02:09:18 GMT

I am doing my University application right now.

I think I am going to throw up.

*edit* Okay if anyone could tell me what the FUCK my SIN# is (or where my SIN card thing is) I'd greatly appreciate it, and probably return the favour with one of my own, if ya know what I mean.

Not with a bang but a whimper.

Mon, 08 Dec 2003 06:05:39 GMT

The Kitten has succeeded in clawing my arms to death.

Apparently everyone hates me.
That's ok though.

Someone take me away please. If only for a day.

DieScrmng: you're the reason why boys are nervous to talk to girls
(gee Thanks tristan)

Sun, 07 Dec 2003 18:24:07 GMT

Atreyu vs. Zao:	Zao
Daughters vs. Charles Bronson:	Daughters
Sparta vs. Billy Talent:	Sparta
Every Time I Die vs. Give Up The Ghost:	ETID
The Mars Volta vs. I Hate Myself:	The Mars Volta
Alexisonfire vs. Underoath:	ew no.
The Blood Brothers vs. Cirlce Takes The Square:	The Blood Brothers
The Bled vs. pg. 99:	pg. 99
Saetia vs. Holy Molar:	Saetia
Q and not U vs. These Arms Are Snakes:	These Arms..
The Postal Service vs. The Faint:	The Postal Service
Arab on Radar vs. Melt Banana:	Melt Banana
36 Crazy Fists vs. Glassjaw:	Glassjaw
Modest Mouse vs. Armor For Sleep:	neither
Brand New vs. Saves The Day:	Brand New

BAND vs. BAND; take your pick. brought to you by BZOINK!

Yowzah

Sat, 06 Dec 2003 08:21:03 GMT

Work is a bitch. Apparently I got written up (?) coz one night my recovery wasn't done well enough. Meh.
Nikki stayed with me all shift so we put her to work and paid her with lollipops.

After shift, Nikki and I went home with Kira and her boyfriend. Nikki, Kira and I got high in Kira's backyard and watched X2. I've never seen it before, I just watched it and I honestly couldn't tell you what it was about. Haha.

Tristan I didn't e-mail you coz I just got home. Sorry <3

My nose is still cold from forever ago. Where are my pajamas?

Sneak Preview!!!

Fri, 05 Dec 2003 19:28:34 GMT

Yesterday just as I was about to call into work sick, the phone rang and it was Kira, pleading with me to come in to work early. Then, today, Nikki woke me up and told me Claire's was on the phone. So guess who gets to go into work early again today!!?!?!?!?!?! Do they not have any other employees?! Like. Seriously guys. Come on.

I was supposed to spend all day working on my English I.S.U. but now I can't.

I complain about work too much. You probably all hate me for it. But that's okay.

Ugh I am intensly sick. Kate I'm sorry I didn't go out with you this morning. We will do something fun soon I promise.

I am exhuasted of everything.

w00sh

Wed, 03 Dec 2003 21:46:28 GMT

Endings are no fun.

But honesty is something I admire.

I should have ignored the phone.

Wed, 03 Dec 2003 20:06:39 GMT

I am now working Friday too, 6-10. Claire's really is taking over my life.

I have been feeling very odd lately. Everything has been pissing me off or upsetting me, or otherwise causing some really sudden, unwanted mood swing. Too much insecurity about nearly every aspect of my life. I seem to have an inability to deal with most normal things, i.e: jobs, school, pissy bitchy teachers, friendships/relationships, REALISTIC future thinking, etc etc etc etc etc.
I apologize for my current stage of sucky-ness. I'm hoping it goes away soon. Maybe it's just some stupid quarter life crisis. Maybe I can sleep it away. HMMM.

Okay let the pity party commence!!!

Someone come do something with me Saturday! I'm only working til 9:00pm and I miss having some real, actual human contact.

Lord all mighty!

Wed, 03 Dec 2003 06:35:42 GMT

I have been sick today =( So I spent all day hibernating and watching t.v.

Today my magic 8-ball confirmed my biggest fears!! But then it contradicted its previous predictions.
Sketchy! Very sketchy.

Shane and I rock the proverbial cashbah

Tue, 02 Dec 2003 04:05:17 GMT

we rock to the new sensation says: remember when the reason/swn werent a bunch of asshats? i dont

the vitally important pelvic thrust says : hahahahahahhahahah dork
the vitally important pelvic thrust says: someone came into my store wearing a reason hoodie. i didnt ask her if she needed help today

we rock to the new sensation says: hahahah good for you
we rock to the new sensation says: what cunts

the vitally important pelvic thrust says: ahhahahaha
the vitally important pelvic thrust says: i rule

we rock to the new sensation says: hahahaha no doubt
we rock to the new sensation says: if i had a job i would refuse that girl any sort of serviiice
we rock to the new sensation says: "are you sure you wanna buy that? cuz, im not gonna let you."

the vitally important pelvic thrust says: hhahahahaa. AHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
the vitally important pelvic thrust says: sorry miss, you have to leave the store. we're not allowed to sell to people who like shitty music

we rock to the new sensation says: hahahaahaha
we rock to to the new sensation says: when she walks through the door, a huge alarm goes off
we rock to to the new sensation says: and theres a huge flashing sign
we rock to to the new sensation says: that says
we rock to the new sensation says: SHITTY MUSIC ALERT

the vitallyimportant pelvic thrust says: AHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA YESSSSSSSSSSS and we will have music police.
"youre under arrest"
"what?? Why!?
"coz the reason sucks"

we rock to the new sensation says: then they'll proceed to beat them with huge night sticks
we rock to the new sensation says: which will shock her
we rock to the new sensation says: and change her brain
we rock to the new sensation says: so she likes better music
we rock to the new sensation says: then they take her sweatshirt and force her to eat it

the vitally important pelvic thrust says: DUDE
the vitally important pelvic thrust says: have you ever seeen or read a clockwork orange?!?!?!

we rock to thew new sensation says: yeah
we rock to the new sensation says: hahaha
we rock to thew new sensation says: we'll force her to listen to good music
we rock to to the new sensation says: and play the reason while she watches videos of rape and murder

the vitally important pelvic thrust says: YES!!!
the vitally important pelvic thrust says: my thoughts exactly

This Friday is a P.A. Day. Not a retarded half-day. A REAL P.A. DAY. That owns. I also DON'T HAVE TO WORK ON FRIDAY! How much does that rule? A whole fucking lot, that's how much.

My throat hurts a bit though.

http://www.crimethinc.com/library/join.html
JOIN THE RESISTANCE! FALL IN LOVE!!! FIGHT THE POWER! HAVE LOTS OF SEX!!!

Oh my god.

Mon, 01 Dec 2003 03:17:34 GMT

I need a fucking vacation.

Jesus Christ.

isitworthitcanyouevenhearme

Monster, Monster, Monster Garage

Sun, 30 Nov 2003 06:32:15 GMT

Work was busy as fuck, then mellowed out and it was better. Kira brought me a skull sucker that made my mouth blood red, it looked like I was hemmoraghing. I can't spell that. There was also this really funky looking chick in the store. She was black and had this crazy curly hair that round like a 'fro but was just curls, man I love curly hair. And she wore 70's funk boots and a long fuzzy coat, she ruled. Bought earrings that remind me of ice cream, and talked to me about the places she's lived, like Seattle and New York and L.A. and Chicago. I told her I want to go to B.C. and she said I would love it. "The shopping is great!" Some people really make work bearable.

I organized all the make-up and was really pleased with myself. Of course it will be a disaster by the time I get into work tomorrow.

I tried to do my online registration for university but I got really confused. There are too many links and I have no idea what I am doing. I need to talk to my guidance councellor for sure, coz I might have different forms to fill out and shit. I also need a proof of enrollement letter from my school so that I can hand in my already-filled-out application for Ford's.

In ten months or so, I will be a student at the University of Windsor, I will (hopefully) be a Ford's employee, and I will (hopefully) be moved out. My step-mom already said she'd help me decorate my place, she's amazing with stuff like that. And my step-brother is a carpenter so...

I'm very excited for all this. (And scared too.)

I have to go read a whole bunch. Sarah did you get my message? Kate are we exchanging Christmas gifts?

???

Leave me notes ok.

Godammit.

Sat, 29 Nov 2003 18:49:52 GMT

Boo is trying to kill me.

I feel better today. Sleep is such a great cure for EVERYTHING.

Thank you, Mr. Sandman.

My mom made me spinach pancakes (spinach, eggs, cheese, onions) and they are superb.

Today I am working 6-10 (I really do not want to) and then I am going to my dad's house for the night. Yay.

Tomorrow is the Slut Club Field Trip to downtown for tea so Sarah and I can complain to each other about dumb shit, then drink tea and have fun and feel better.

Kate- I am glad your date went so well. We will talk later.

I'm gonna do my online university application thing right now. Hopefully I can figure out how to do it because I fell asleep during the presentation. Heh.

No name blue juice is my favouritest thing ever.

Sigh

Sat, 29 Nov 2003 01:55:06 GMT

I'm pretty sure god hates me.

Apparently my moron of a writer's craft teacher told my English teacher (who happens to be my favourite teacher in the whole world) that I live alone and can't take care of myself, and that is why I am always so tired in class.

WHAT
THE
FUCK
.

Honestly, what the hell gave her that idea??? Did she not consider the idea that I'm tired because I go to school all day, then I work 3-6 hours at night, then I have homework assignments, and I have a major ISU in each of my three classes, and each ISU is worth 20% of my mark (which is important now with university and all.) Or the fact that I have trouble sleeping at night. Did she think that maybe that's why I sometimes fall asleep while listening to her drone on and on about pointless shit that has nothing to do with me or with the course in general?

Obviously she didn't. Silly old woman has nothing better to do than dream up imaginary situations which hold not one inch of truth.
Like. If you're concerned about a student, take them aside and ask what's going on. Don't tell all their other teachers some bullshit you imagined.

Work was a living hell today. This is the first Friday I've been off work before ten in like a month. And I'm sitting at home. Alone. There is no one around or online to keep me company. But I guess that's okay.

The only good thing about today was that I got to read Joel's ISU. It was way racy.

Sigh. I feel like shit. Someone come make me happy okay?

Bleh. Sorry.

First real kiss: I'm still trying to forget it.
First job: This one, Claire's. Die.
First screen name: lung cancer fairy.
First Album: Nirvana- Nevermind
First funeral: Never been to one.
First pet: When I was three we had a dog named Barnie.
First piercing: My ears when I was nine.
First true love: I've never been in love.
Last big car ride: To Cleveland in August to see BANE and ETID
Last kiss: Last month.
Last good cry: Shut up.
Last movie seen: Sarah and I watched Interview With The Vampire yesterday and the day before.
Last beverage drank: Pink Grapefruit natural soda
Last food consumed: Veggie stir-fry
Last phone call: Don't remember.
Last shoes worn: Black boots that killed my feet.
Last CD played: Don't remember.
Last item bought: A winter coat.
Last disappointment: Cancelled plans.
Last soda drank: Pink Grapefruit, asshole.
Last ice cream eaten: Chocolate chip.
Last shirt worn: BANE t-shirt. I'm wearing my old AF hoodie right now though.

p.s: Kate I hope you are having fun tonight <3

This time it's war

Thu, 27 Nov 2003 22:13:16 GMT

Too much work, not enough fun!!

I had detention today. OMG. Nikki's friends tormented me.

I took my gauged and cartilage piercings out. I'm waiting for the lobes to heal to a normal size so I can wear pretty earrings. My industrial is being even more of a bitch than usual. I can't wait til I don't have a continously sore, bleeding wound on the back of my ear. That's gonna be great.

Work sucks. School sucks. Tomorrow should be good though.

Eat lightning, shit thunder!

Thu, 27 Nov 2003 02:33:42 GMT

Today rules.

Nikki's alarm clock went off late, like at 8:25am or something, and I would have been LATE FOR SCHOOL (heaven forbid) which would mean that I would get a SUSPENSION (gasp) so I just went back to sleep.

I love how it is better to skip an entire day of school than be LITERALLY two minutes late for period one. LOVE IT.

Rar.

Okay I've been seeing this in other people's LJs. Post an ANONYMOUS comment. A secret, a story, what you think of me, something you want to ask me but normally wouldn't, a random fact, anything at all. Anything you want me to know. Make sure it's anonymous though! And if you're waiting for a reply, it won't be emailed coz it's anonymous so you'll have to check back here. DO THIS PLEASE!!!

p.s: I don't log IPs so it really is anonymous.

Rar!

Wed, 26 Nov 2003 05:53:11 GMT

I got called into work today. That part sucked but working with my manager Kira is still good. We are now semi-forced to wear those stupid fuckin link-to-link things, I swear to god these things are the bane of my existance and now we have to wear them to promote them. So Kira made me one that says "satan is super." It is... super.

+ I bought a coat
- I'm really tired
+ I have no homework tonight
- My mouth hurts
+ I don't have to work tomorrow
- I have dentention tomorrow
+ Winter break is less than a month away
- I'm lonely
+ Sparking Pink Grapefruit naturally flavoured soda fucking owns
- My writer's craft teacher is a fucking MORON.MORON

Don't you bam bam bambambambam! Forget about me

Tue, 25 Nov 2003 06:12:17 GMT

Okay so this cut on my gums is steadily increasing in both swelling and pain. Honestly you wouldn't think it would be so painful, but it hurts like a fucking bitch! What do I do about a cut on my gums? Just leave it?? I dunno, man. I just don't know.

I worked like the easiest shift of my life tonight. I love working with my manager, Kira. She fucking rules.

I also found a really nice coat in *cough* Old Navy. Black pea coat, it's exactly what I've been looking for, and under $100 too! OH EM GEE. Perhaps I will buy in tomorrow when I go back to the mall for my staff meeting. I have to make sure it's warm enough.

Sigh. Will the girlieness ever end???!/!!1!>#@~@!?